Now I really do think.

Last journal entry until I renew my sub. Mainly because if I updated, then it wouldn't really look all snazy anymore + FS just keeps getting hard or just more busy work. This month Im taking Production Modeling and Scripting. I dreaded this month since I started, but so far it isn't so bad..yet. I get to pick what to hard surface model(DSi mofo!) and I have to do a bust of my head in ZBrush. x__x At least this is the last modeling class(thank god).

Eh, Im learning that I like doing design more than animation, however I don't mind animation at all. It's not a drag to do like modeling and such. It's too late for me to switch degrees. Going to have to start printing out those motivational lawl posters. I'll be needing them for this last year. Im almost half way done. I can do this.



I know I should type in some happier, non-sarcasticly pessimistic things. Hm, lets see
-Im alive(barely)
-My birthday is tomorrow
-I get to see my friend Nichole that I haven't seen in almost two years
-I got MGS4(omfg I love this game; however now it's a bad addiction for me to play)

And then the equal outs which is just one big one:
-My boyfriend left to go back home to get his certificate in personal training. ;___;
-As if I couldn't be anymore physically attracted to him, Andy, I really love 6-packs. Dayyaum
-I am "borrowing" his PS3 until we meet again/live with each other(one more year ahhhhh we can do this!). This explains how I am able to play Metal Gear, and I am going to get BlazBlue.
-My dad loves his daughter so much, that he is letting me skip my family Thanksgiving to go up and see him. If you have a fireplace, we are not leaving from it all break lol.
-But that's a good 6 months away. >__>
-Since im too much in love, everything reminds me of him and I go into a 5min. "I miss you teary eye; i want hugz tiem" state.

I will make this work and prove that it will. When people say that long distance relationships fail, it's because you my friend are the fail, not us. So stfu and gtfo. K thxs bai.

It's just ironic, all of it to me. I've been wanting a PS3 for a while, and lawl I get it but I have to sacrifice my boyfriend for it. Not really how I wanted to get it...


I miss you <3

Im going to have to change the subject, or Im going to spill out my hidden emotional side that no one is suppose to see.

I saw the weirdest wtf saddest thing the other day. There was a group of baby ducks and this big sount turtle thing comes out of the lake and eats one whole. Wtf when did turtles eat ducklings? Food chain error?


(If you got that refernce, you know your Nintendo games--and yes I made that^ lol my photoshop skills are the shat)

Speaking of Nintendo, they were super fail at E3. To be honest everyone was. Well accept Im happy for the new MGS5 and Mario Galaxy 2, but that's it. XBox just ate everyone with their "no controller LOL IM MAGIK MOTION" preview. Too be honest, I like controllers. >> Don't take them away. ;o; Oh oh and Castlevania is being made on teh XBox by Hideo! OMGYAY
But those were my only "yay"s. Wish there was more, but noes. ;^;


Eh it's almost 2am, I need to get to sleep so I can work all day on my stuff tomorrow...wait. Fuck I have class Dx DAMN. I forgot...I will update with pictures later. Night`